و أشوفك كل ساعة بحال...في يوم واحد..

بيقولوا عني مزاجية

وانا لا اعتقد ذلك علي الاطلاق

ما يحدث انني دائما اقاوم ما انا فيه

مرة انجح

و مرة مانجحش

لما بعديها بكون مبسوطة

و لما بتزيد عليا قوي

بكون متضايقة

يعني لا انا مكبرة علي طول

ولا معيشة نفسي الكآبة علي طول

بذمتكم مش كدة احسن ؟؟

انا برده بقول كده

احلم معايا

احلم معايا ببكرة جاى ولو مجاش احنا نجيبة بنفسنا

نبدأ نحاول فى الطريق كتر الخطاوى تدلنا على حلمنا

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مهما نقع نقدر نقوم نشق نتحدى الغيوم نلاقى بينا الف يوم

بس احنا نحلم ... احلم معايا يا صديق تطوى الخطى ارض الطريق يهمنى

حلمى البرىء مهما يكون يفضل بروحة جمبنا مهما يطول بنا الطريق لو حتى تهنا

يا صديق يرجعه لقانا يضمنا على حلمنا

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Self centered.....

When I think of any new entry to write it has to be about myself and my problems....

Meanwhile I see others writnig about others,life,football and everything else.

is that me being self-centered!!

or I have no other interests??

I don't care about football....

I don't care about politics unless there are some major events or something...

My LiFe.....

Is my life really mine??

Or it is under the control of time,work and other circumstances???

How is the best way to live??

by controlling every minute??

well..that's impossible.....

by going with the flow??

well..that's not safe.....

how am I suppose to live???

I think and I think and I think.......of what other people think....

I care and I care and I care...about what other people think...

well..that's me being stupid...coz the don't know any better about their lives....How the heck they would know about mine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Iam walking the day...talking the day....But am I living the day???

What is living???

is it watching the events and waiting them???

or making them??

well...how could I make them??

Iam done figuring out myself....I have to move to another level.....

and when I Reach that level.....I will tell my "watching" self...

Psychosomatic...Seriously!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have diarrhea for about a week now....

I have been fatigued for about a week....

I get dizzy for a bout a week now.....

and If I went to a doctor he would tell me that iam stressed out about something....

So I spared myself the effort and decided that Iam really stressed out....

But the problem now I have no idea why Iam stressed out........

I have been walking with a cloud above my head for a week now...

I have been having weird dreams for a week now.....

I have been shutting up alot-and if you know me you would find that very very weird-....

I have been walking and looking to nothing...

Iam the psychosomatic.....and the psychosomatic is me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!