The melodies..The memories

In the past few days I have been rolling some memories in my head..about my childhood..There is no specific reason for that..they just keep popping up..
I haven't had the full meaning of a family for long time..so one of the most things that really give sillies is the view of a small family hanging out all together..I miss that..I want that.. but I don't know I just don't see it coming yet..

The fear within
the anger within
the empty life that nothing is enough to fill
the crap within
the baseline that never made a curve
the hidden rules that rules out society
and most of it are bullshit
the empty minds with colorful faces
the gathered pieces that aren't in their places..
the grades that rank people..
the degree that define man..
well..the degree itself is rotten..
The love that being role played..
The marriage that has been a miscarriage..
the family with noone leading..
the mother.the father.things have lost their meaning.
the air within..

the anger is everywhere
in and out
eating it all..like a giant ugly snake..
creeping all around..
the anger in me is brand new..
but I can't not follow..
But the face I see..
The voices I hear..
get right through me..
The fear they reflex..
The lack they feel..
The cause of their crashes..
That's how they appear..